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Every morning I stand in front of the class
I feel like hurling a brick at the back wall
But I tell myself that it is not worth it

I listen to the drivel of my own voice
the self-importance and smugness
but I love the sounds and echoes it makes

sometimes I looked at the kids in front of me
waiting for me to say something smart
I do but I know the kids at the back instantly
see through the fauxness and odor of academia

someone in the darkness asked me a question
I tried to focus but I smiled and referred the ghost
to page 371 of the text book and told it to read it
at that moment I felt like King Shit. And it was ok

I count the minutes and seconds of the wall clock
admiring its steeliness of the daily verbal spiel
bouncing off the ceiling, the walls and cold bodies
sensing my life slowly draining away. And it was ok

but the hour is up and I feel like its too late anyway
to start hurling the brick at the back wall
as the kids shuffle out and I tell myself
maybe I will do it tomorrow. After lunch.

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Cloudy Someday

I wait for the black fog to arrive
To see if it is a cloud forming
Or vanishing over the skyline

I will wait in the blue shade
Not knowing its narrow ways
Or its marches over the pass

But I will stand with what I have
Of a vigilance that never fades
Waiting to slay the black fog
That bears my very name

Time is a Strange Companion

Time is a strange companion that follows us faithfully
And without us knowing, plunges us into Life itself
It carries us like lovers without passion and love
But follows us constantly – Delicately Continue reading Time is a Strange Companion

Note from a Poor Sap

No matter how I try to change, I can never be like one of them. You know, the kind who went to the right school and have the right kind of friends. The kind whose parents speak in clear and grammatically correct speech patterns. The kind who goes to Paris and New York just to admire the fucking flowers and enjoy the awful coffee and pastries. The kind whose friends and parents don’t know the difference between soccer and football but can tell you the difference between a Monet and a Warhol. Who cares?! They are the ones who goes overseas for holidays and doesn’t take shit from anyone. They are the ones who have people running around like headless chickens under them saying “Yes sir” “No sir” “Sorry sir” whereas the only time the rest of us hear those word is when we visit McDonalds or KFC. They are the ones whose kids lord over the rest of us poor uneducated souls with bad teeth and bad grammar and bad postures. We are the poor saps who listen to loud music and eat cheap food. Who doesn’t know how lucky we are to even have a job all thanks to them who are titans of industry. Who are ungrateful and unreliable roughs who only cares about fucking and drinking and gambling and sleeping. Well, who doesn’t love all of that? So what if we are uneducated, rough, stubborn and violent?  If we don’t can’t rise up, we will drag them to our level. They will be kicking and screaming in the mud. Just as we do not want to rise up to the light, they will not want to play with us in the mud. So no matter what they think, I can never be like one of them. Because I am not one of them and they are not me. And naturally it is and naturally it shall be, forever and ever. Note from a poor and fuck you sap.

Rage Inside

There is a rage in me that burns quietly in the shade.
A civil rage that require no fuel to ignite and burn.
it only keeps burning. Why? I cannot say but
I play a metronome to chain the beast.
Scared as I struggle to smother its flames.
Knowing that if I will lose control
if I inch too close the blaze will return
reducing my troubles to cinders

Meet me by the corner

Meet me at the old cafe by the corner. Will you be there?
I can’t wait to see you even if we are only six weeks old
I don’t know why but you have something that mystify
You make me feel like saying that I am just a boy
waiting for a girl by the old corner cafe – melting
You know how I killed the pain? Got nothing but time
Passing me by as I imagine our bodies up to the sky
with nothing but chocolate, coffee and cigarettes
spending time with our silly smiles and giggles
waiting for you and nobody else – in my mind
waiting by the old cafe growing old with you
I am by the old cafe – will you be there?